Re : forming the me I hide

It’s time to do what’s right for me,
it’s ok to be selfish,
it’s ok to shape my life the way that feels right for me,
acknowledging that the shape of life changes.
People will disapprove, telling you you’re wrong,
insisting you change for their sake, not yours.

Why pretend,
why wear masks,
why portray a shape of life that is ill-fitting
just to please others
it’s just not worth it, really it isn’t.

It’s time, time to be happy,
to unlearn unhealthy rhythms and patterns of life
if not I will stay in this rut,
the quagmire of my
unlived undeveloped life
I am worth investing in myself,
my ideas and plans
for all that makes me flourish, feeds my soul.

It’s a learning experience, life,
not everything will go smoothly
there will be hitches along the way
it’s part of the learning experience

I want to work on being the best version of myself
to figure out who I am,
to uncover the authentic me,
without judgment or
shaming parts of myself that I’ve
wrestled with or denied
I need to love my holistic whole self
my body,
my mind
and my soul
to do what makes me happy,
to take ownership of myself,
to make decisions and choices
to make values and root them
to cultivate and nurture them
then to watch and see me flourish in fruitfulness.