It’s time to do what’s right for me,
it’s ok to be selfish,
it’s ok to shape my life the way that feels right for me,
acknowledging that the shape of life changes.
People will disapprove, telling you you’re wrong,
insisting you change for their sake, not yours.
why wear masks,
why portray a shape of life that is ill-fitting
just to please others
it’s just not worth it, really it isn’t.
It’s time, time to be happy,
to unlearn unhealthy rhythms and patterns of life
if not I will stay in this rut,
the quagmire of my
unlived undeveloped life
I am worth investing in myself,
my ideas and plans
for all that makes me flourish, feeds my soul.
It’s a learning experience, life,
not everything will go smoothly
there will be hitches along the way
it’s part of the learning experience
I want to work on being the best version of myself
to figure out who I am,
to uncover the authentic me,
without judgment or
shaming parts of myself that I’ve
wrestled with or denied
I need to love my holistic whole self
and my soul
to do what makes me happy,
to take ownership of myself,
to make decisions and choices
to make values and root them
to cultivate and nurture them
then to watch and see me flourish in fruitfulness.
Word within the word,
the alpha into the omega,
the pure essence,
the fragrance of the beloved,
the space [ ]
in dwelling. in us,
fragile, meek, and lost,
word into flesh,
cut and scorned,
The God of my understanding
God speaks to us most clearly through silence,
through our unknowing, knowing
unattainable but present,
Seeing humanities quirkiness even struggles yet somehow loving us beyond time and space, blind to borders, hate and otherness.
God abides not in one single religion, or one space, God is beyond our limiting brains, this we must embrace.
God is with us, with us right now. In the silent place of your soul, the soul the womb of God, God is stirring, listen, you might hear, listen with ears, mind and heart.
Look with creator eyes at the cornucopia of colour emerging from within the leaves, leaves with vibrate earthy, natural colours,
a last shot of energy,
then the leaves flurry to the ground, leaves turn to mush,
energy returned to the ground,
ready to energise,
to give life again,
but now rest
Smell with creator senses,
tender and true.
Leaves, petals, once shouting out with colour abound,
that deathly returning to the earth,
body broken down,
The crunch of autumns deathly comes
Smell overwhelming of energy pouring back into the earth
the body, now a lifeless corpse, buried
nurturance for life’s best
rest now until spring’s forth.
2 Cor 5:17 – Created a new – the old life is gone; a new life burgeons.
Change is in the air
Enveloped in homemade chrysalis
Grave of the old earthly bond body
Death seeps in……
life blood flows out,
This liminal space
This hard place
Death is held here.
as if all hope was totally lost
a quickening pause of energy strikes
an urgent plea is sounded
Prophesy this new life into being
Speak words of
this liminal space becomes a womb
birthing into a new reality
Cells grow and knit together
The butterfly exhausted
Flaps its wings and fly’s
This thing of beauty
Lopping in and out,
Change is birthed again.
one of your young, died
he was on the cold earth, motionless
his soul free now from the limitation of its earthly body soaring high
he looked perfect
no sign of attack
I could tell
I could tell you were looking for him
almost cancelling out the body on the earth near you
you didn’t want to admit it
I removed his body to a safe place, at rest
you calmed down,
almost acknowledging, accepting your lose,
knowing nothing more could be done for your son
then you, yes you mr blackbird let out a heart-wrenching lamination
you are a master listener
you hop along, you stop,
moving your head from side to side
listening, listening carefully
listening without interruption
listening beyond time
you hop again
you dive down
deep under the earth,
a wriggling worm is torn from it’s dark, moist world
I wonder what you heard mr blackbird?
do worms make a sound
or was it a vibration
maybe just a hunch
mr blackbird, how do you hear?
what do you hear?
mr blackbird you inspire me to
listen with sight,
ears and other senses.
I watched you for ages,
you were in a meditative haze,
orange beak open
body in a contorted shape,
like concord about to take off
you were resting in mid summers spotlight
shimmering in the haze like a sauna’s intense heat.
you were living firmly in he moment,
steadfast in another place,
What do you dream of mr blackbird?
mr blackbird sits precariously on his high tower, looking, sensing even knowing something is wrong
Then as if a switch is triggered he is brought to life, there is an urgency to his message, all is not well, you need to listen to me,
mr blackbird uses all his energy to proclaim this message, this message that must be heard, despite the bedraggled worn out appearance mr blackbird uses his small frame to jump up and down, flap his wings for all their might, forcing out his message, the echo of his voice reverberating across shed and greenhouse, lawn and flowerbed
This pulsating red hot message is passed on to other lookouts, there is a cacophony of noise as the message is received and re-communicated.
Then, as if the switch is turned off, peace descends to the garden, the threat has ceased, moved on yet mr blackbird know’s never to rest, next time things could be different……
connected – discounted
we’ve never been so connected, says the advert
all-consuming, hours, wasted on nowt,
saturated with information, whizzing about the mind,
anesthetised to reality,
feeds demons of the mind.
time to disconnect.
reconnect to reality
reality in all its multifaceted colour
government lost, lost in crisis.
nhs – do we need to talk about it, resus or not?
relationships with real people, learn to disagree well
befriend people unlike you – be disturbed
be different and live.
connect to humanity,
Connect to the heartbeat,
the heartbeat of who you are,
your place in the world,
your home in nature,
life in its fullest sense,
taste and see.